FINDING THE WORDS

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L I T T L E B E A R W O L F 

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T W E N T Y S I X T E E N 

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Aloha, Ahoy

With the breath of Spring riding on the horizon, the night clearly lit under the starry sky, the days are beginning to hum the soft sound of summer & while I await the golden glow of the sunshine, I find myself feeling a hint of wanderlust & in my bones I know something in me is changing.

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I feel like the older I get, the more I get to understand myself but also the opportunity to create myself. Adventure, exploration & creativity have over time become incredibly important to me & my lifestyle. I figured that the single most important thing to me is to live.

To live & not simply exist.

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Allowing myself to explore that idea was the first hurdle I'd face. Life moves at a pace these days in corporate & technological terms that I'm not sure mankind will eventually keep up with, we're managing to do the impossible, to take on ideas that fifty years ago were just dreams of mad scientists & film-makers. 

With that power comes great responsibility; of course a dark side too.

Acts of terror, war & disaster continue to threaten our communities.

While these massive leaps & acts on mankind's part continue to roll out, as just one person, I find myself asking where my place in the world is, what my purpose is & how I'm going to spend the time that is given to me.

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So with the rising Spring sun, I find myself pondering my place in it all, wandering through thoughts, dreams & looking for answers to the questions I've not yet formed into sentences.

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I fight with this constant battle between me & myself. To achieve everything in an instant, to create & manage everything the internet has taught me is possible to make my dreams come true.

Yet at the same time wondering just what exactly the whole damn rush is about, I'm only 27.

You can't rush life, experience or your own journey.

Hell to what everyone else is up to, by all means support, find inspiration & build companionship with those who are important to you.

Understand though that the only person who you can control, the only life you can live, the only story you will write is your own.

When you shine brightly, you light a path for those around you.

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So I stop for a moment on the mountainside, I face away from the rock face I've been scrambling to climb & I turn around, the vast valley beneath me is shining in hues of gold, pink & purple. The white snow sitting atop the mountains glows as if it's sprinkled with glitter & I realise that not all treasure is silver & gold.

I put down my backpack & close my eyes, to appreciate the moment.

I understand that even if it's just for a moment that everything is ok, my pursuit of life happens at every second of the day & by pressuring myself to reach the summit in a day, I not only set my self up for failure; but I stop myself from admiring the journey, from enjoying the experience & from appreciating the view along the way.

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I can't tell you your purpose, I can't tell you why mankind exist and to what purpose, that's your own plot waiting to be written & devised. I can only explain that while I might not have all the answers, nor even the questions, I understand that everyday I wake, is precious time that I can use to unite my passions, to write my story, to learn, to explore.

Everyday won't always be a wondrous adventure, but when the foundations are being dug, I can wipe my tired eyes because the seeds I've sown today, will blossom in time.

Because my story has begun. I am on the road.

As the fog clears, I know that adventure, exploration & learning are integral to the development of my story.

I wasn't born to be a certain thing when I grew up

I was born to live

free and wild

untameable

& changeable

to live my life, not to find my place in her, but to create it.

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While the rolling hills of England call me home, I place my ear to the ground & listen to understand the direction in which I will go.

As the sun makes her farewell with the day. I will sleep in the knowledge that while I won't always have a compass to guide me, that while my family are divided across the globe, while home feels like more than one place to me, that my passion is my fire & I will do all the things that set my soul alight.

I will truly live.

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While there are many mountains to climb, I have the rest of my life to do so.

Life is a constant balancing act, you must continue to find that balance for it's ever changing just as we are as people.

What's important to me now, is different from ten years ago, as I imagine it will be ten years from now.

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So dear heart, try to not worry about having all the answers, of having the plot written, of understanding all the parts. In time these things will come together.

Focus on what you can do today, what can you begin, communicate & initiate that inspires & sets your soul alight?

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To be or not to be is truly the question Shakespeare.

But deciding to be, is only to open the door, the real adventure lies once you step outside.

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Love & Peace

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KG

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